It’s a time of transition and change around the world and personally. We have all been faced with changing our paths . I flew home for Christmas from the Philippines via China and shortly after Coronavirus hit. A pandemic that is going to change the world of travel forever. I came home and soon after had to go into isolation. Alone in a small but beautiful box space I was left with nothing but my thoughts. Whenever I leave the states for an extended period of time I come home and feel reverse culture shock. It’s a difficult adjustment time. With all the time in isolation having to feel my emotions I was able to see that my attachment to how I want my relationships to be with my family, my culture, my country causes me a feeling of loneliness and disconnect. To be active and create change I need to let go of my expectation and attachment to how I want it to be. To evolve I need to continue on my Path of trying to understand the world and my place in it.
This path has led me to the Navajo Nation. I arrived as the new Public Health Nurse in an isolated area of the Navajo Nation at peak of the Covid 19 virus. This virus has hit the Navajo Nation hard. America’s addiction to apathy is being revealed by this virus. Our history is in our face to not see it is a choice some are making. The death toll of those who have been disenfranchised throughout American history are dying at higher rates. Our society has been built so that a few privileged white Americans have health and wealth at the expense of those who do not. Yes people of color have higher rates of hypertension and diabetes that is true but we need to look at our history to understand why. As I make my daily calls to the Covid ICU’s in Arizona and New Mexico I’m hearing blame of the Navajo for this virus. As the nurses on the line try to get me to collaborate with them. In trying to redirect the conversation to an understanding that wealth is health .Then the conversation is quickly redirected not wanting to go further in the subject. With a strong judgmental tone what about alcoholism of the Navajo. I see it as the same issue of unjustified blame. I come from a family of alcoholics. The only difference is they aren’t forced to drink hand sanitizer to meet their addictive needs. They feed their addictions with top shelf booze, micro brew and fine wine. When they pass out they have a bed in a beautiful home. Alcoholism is everywhere, it’s just more visible if you are homeless. Let’s stop the blame of those who have had no power. For those with power lets stop the history of apathy and take on the responsibility of our history that created our privilege at the expense of others.
My personal challenge is to stay unattached to my emotions so that can grow in a greater understanding of the world we all share.